So yeah.. its the 21st which means the airing of MAMA (Mnet Asian Music Award)~ I was really looking forward to it as being totally curious if Jay or YunMin would appear~ None of them did *sadsmile*
I've watched JaeChunSu's speech as for now (Best Asia Group!! Congrats boys <3<3<3 I'm so proud of you!) and I have to say that I almost got tears looking at their faces D'X
I'm glad they didn't actually cry cause I wouldn't be able to bear with their tears ;o; Though one can see that Jae was trying REALLY hard to be strong~ Since we all know how much he loves his members I'm pretty sure that especially HE is really down because of the recent issues~
And we all know Jae has a cold heart XDDDD~ but my heart broke into pieces when I looked at his expression xx
Watch the vid and judge by yourself~


credit to MissReification@YT
Translated by AllKpop

Xiah Junsu stated:
"It's been a long time. It's an honor just to be able to attend such a huge event, but being able to receive an award, thank you so much. This award is not for one single member, but because all 5 members have put forth so much effort we are able to receive it. Thank you so much to all of our fans in Asia for allowing us to receive such a huge award."

Micky Yoochun stated:
"I think this is the first time I've wanted to sing so badly. After becoming a singer, I was able to meet such great members, that's why I think we are able to be here. We will work even harder to expand beyond Asia. We hope for even more support than now."

Youngwoong Jaejoong stated:
"I can't be happier because this award is coming directly from the fans of Asia. To our fans who are watching and possibly our two friends who are watching, I wanted to say that I love you."

Another group whom i really proud of is 2PM who won the BEST MALE GROUP and ARTIST OF THE YEAR award! ^^ They really reeaaallyyy deserve it <333
Watch their speeches HERE (Best male group) and HERE (Artist of the year)
*sob* I'm soo proud of'em *o*

I'd totally like to kick my ass now if i could >< And I'm really losing my faith in people~

Two days ago I lost my cellphone just because I'm someone who has to listen to music while going to school~ So when I heard my bell-charm jingling I didn't really realized that the cp fell down >< why does something like that always happen to me?!
2 phones gone in just 3 MONTHS! At first someone steals my iphone while i'm like.. 2 metres away! And now someone just keeps my almost broken cp thinking that they have to keep it just because it's a phone?! C'mon! what do you want with a sony ericsson which can't be closed correctly and where the display is slightly broken? Argh~
Honestly I don't even really care that the cp is gone~ it's just the fact that I won't be able to get my charms back ;o;
I REALLY REALLY want those charms back since I got them from KayKay T____T *cries*

I'm not surprised that someone wants to keep a phone he/she's found but I really believed the finder would be honest enough to take it to a lost and found station~ but I guess I should stop thinking like that~
I've always acted quite annoyed when my mother starts with 'hide this and that and watch out when they're going into your room' when friends are coming to my place because I mean.. duuuhh.. they are friends?! Why would they take my things? Though I don't want to be someone who doesn't have faith in people I know and I actually detest acting like a paranoid little girl infront of nice strangers etc.. just because they are being nice~ But I really am losing my faith in people now ><'' I guess I'm just too naive -.-'' *bricks herself*

Anyways~ My father wasnt very pleased to know that ONCE AGAIN my phone's gone and I'm not suprised in any way Oo'' My mother just 'laughed' at me (with an I-TOLD-YOU-LOOK -.-'')
Sooo~ I think it's for me to invest in a new phone.. so I looked around a littlle and found the BL40 and BL20 New chocolate phone~
550€ and 250€? Oo'' Insane? ><'' I think I'll just buy a hello kitty phone *rofl*



Have to sleep now since tomorrow's school Xx Schools Open Day~blaah -.-''

Too good to be true XDD~ but this video gives you a little insight of how it might look like if they'd appear on Inkigayo kekeke~



Since I was kinda bored yesterday (or just because I didn't want to go to bed~ XD ) I was surfing through Youtube and watched some YB fanmade vids ^^ And then there was this one vid from Ep9 (i guess? not sure~ ) were Minam sang Without Words~ It was so touching that I recorded my version while singing along with her :3 And it sounded ugly cause her voice is too amazing XDD so I decided to sing along the Piano version *rofl* Just the 1st attempt~ Maybe I'm going to record it sometime~ not sure yet ^^'
Ignore my fail mic and the keyboard smashing at the beginning XDD my bro was sitting beside me and though I told him to be quiet for a minute he must have forgotten that one can hear when he's typing *lol*

Wanna listen? ^_____^ http://www.box.net/shared/xlyiiau9s3

And what do you think about the Jaebeom rumors? He's back in korea? dunno whom to believe ^^'' I just hope it's true <33

Today's Music Bank performance <333
C-C-Can I.. take these guys with me? *o* I don't mind Onew being absent cause he needs to rest xP *kekeke*
OMG !! BRB watching and flailing once a again~
*back*
They put so much effort into this performance despite the fact that one member was missing~ Taemin singing one of Jonghyun's part!
BOY! YOU DEFINITELY NEED MORE PARTS IN THE NEXT ALBUM/SINGLE! the same goes to Minho! Though he's still unsure about his singing I'm pretty sure he'll improve faster if he'll get to sing more lines instead of just OHs and AHs and Yeahs and raps >____<''
Jonghyun looks SMEXY <333 Camera-Ajusshi~ please focus on him the next time he's 'wiping off his drool' *blink*
I'm still not fond of almighty Key's hairstyle XDD~ but the biased person that I am~ I couldnt stop looking at him *kekeke*


And since me is being Onew deprived (and I totally need to see more SHINee variety shows <333 preferably STRONG HEART xP ) I just have to post this up~ I actually don't like GAG Shows but this one was HILARIOUS XDDD~ The two ajummah's were AWESOME XDD~ and Onew looks so handsoooomeee *drool* I totally like this hairstyle of him <333
The most cracktastic part was when Onew declared that his dream girl should be cute and the two ajummah's immediately turned into those typical AEGYO-type of girl with high voice that sounds so retarded *rofl* but i loved it XD

Have watched Ep12 and OMG OMG OMG!! If my heart could kick me it would totally do that cause it has to beat so fast while I'm watching You're beautiful XD
MinNyu is so beautiful *o* I really envy her~ No wonder three guys can't take their eyes off her <333

currently listening to Jung Yong Hwa's Because I'm Stupid

Okey~ so i've just watched the 11th episode of You're Beautiful [s]despite having a test tomorrow[/s].. and once again~ it was an awesome episode *o* I'm a Shinwoo-shipper so I'm kinda biased XDDD~ but I LUV Geun Suk so I'm happy for him! <3333~
It was just a matter of time~ I knew it from the very beginning~ but still... my heart's broken ;o;
I can't wait to watch the next episode tomorrow!
Jinjjaaaah~
I REEEAAAALLLYYYYY hope for Shinwoo to get another girl~ but thats like.. impossible X.X
Though I love the director/script writer/whoever agreed to this ShinNyu scene!! XDDD My brother already thinks i'm crazy haha! [s]and i feel embarassed by myself laughin, ranting and coughing like an insane person[/s] *rofl*
I'm glad I didn't watch the preview before~ kekeeke.. SPOILER MUCH? XX they TOTALLY showed the best parts Oo''

Jeremy's such a cutie XD~ Though.. I still don't get why Taekyung and Shinwoo are so emberassed 'bout the 'Its so sour'-CF part? someone please explain it to me ? ^^''

I'm supposed to study for tomorrows test~ but viikii was being bitchy and didn't load for like half of the episode Xx
I guess there were too many excited watchers out there? kekekee~

Another thing I've watched yesterday was Golden Fishery with JYP + Wonder Girls~ I totally honor JYP for talking about Jaebum and feel reallllyyyy happy to hear that JYP would put Jay into 2PM again rather than letting him have a solocomeback~ Let's wait paitently for more infos and news ^^

What doesn't make me happy is the fact that today's JaeChunSu's deadline for their decision~ Lets pray and hope that everythings gonna be settled soon @.@

Last but not least~ I WISH EVERYONE who's sick or who's having a hard time with their health to get well soon! I don't think that the swine flu's something to be afraid of but I still hope that Seungi-sshi, Onew-sshi etc.. will recover soon <33
To end this post - random vid of the latest Strong heart (which I'm totally into cause it's uhmaazing! *o*) and because Seungi's smile is to die for <333



currently listening to Ivy's 'Someone I need to forget anyway'